As I think I've posted on here before, I have not given up coffee since I've been breastfeeding (although I have compromised to half
caf/half decaf, and only decaf after the morning)...or chocolate...or wine...or the occasional beer. I will admit there have been a few evenings when I've been enjoying a glass of wine *while* breastfeeding - sort of just worked out that way. Thought Addie was down for the night, so we broke out the wine, and SURPRISE, she's up for one more feed.
C'est la vie. Even the Newman clinic said it was okay to partake in the occasional drink, although I don't think they meant
at the same time : )
I do feel a
teensy bit of guilt when I'm drinking my coffee, or having the rare diet pop (horror of horrors - the aspartame!), or of course drinking wine while feeding my child...but obviously not enough guilt to stop. Besides, she's thriving and is a happy baby. She's actually blowing raspberries at me from her bouncy chair right now - too cute.
I have friends who gave up all this stuff and more when they were breastfeeding. They started when they were pregnant and just kept going through the months they breastfed. In some ways I wish I could be that committed, but on the other hand, I know it doesn't make me a bad mom because Addie gets a little caffeine in her diet.
This "everything in moderation" phase started when I was diagnosed. One might think that if you get a cancer diagnosis, you totally "clean up your act" in terms of lifestyle: You eat organic, no wheat, no dairy, no caffeine, no booze, no meat...in many ways, NO FUN. Some people choose to go this route, and obviously for them, this feels like the right choice. I went to the other extreme - Adam and I went on a "cheesecake tour" the summer I was diagnosed. We ate cheesecake as often as possible, trying all sorts of different kinds, and enjoyed every bite. I also started eating beef again, for the first time in over 10 years. For some reason the moment I started chemo I just HAD TO HAVE beef. I ate fewer vegetables, partly because I was so busy eating beef and cheesecake. I drank wine. I ate lots of chocolate and sugar. Essentially, I treated myself all summer to whatever I felt like. It worked for me. One of the reasons I think I felt so compelled to eat like this was because before my diagnosis, I was the picture of health.
I have always been active, and when I was diagnosed I was working out 5x week. I was in great shape. I had awesome abs. I never ate red meat and often ate tofu. I had the occasional drink but was usually the DD. Didn't touch diet pop and rarely ate dessert. I was super healthy, and I got cancer anyways. Go figure. So it felt
counter intuitive to me to give up all the stuff I really enjoyed to go pure vegan/no wheat/dairy/chocolate etc. And somehow that attitude has stuck with me...I treat myself regularly now, and don't worry too much if it isn't the *most* healthy choice. But two general rules for me are that I try not to drink from plastic bottles and I really never eat fast food. I will say my abs are not as defined as they were back then, but overall I'm still a very healthy person. I continue to eat tofu and get my recommended servings of fruits and veggies, and I haven't really eaten much cheesecake since that summer. : )
Now when it comes to Addie's food, I will be more diligent. Once she starts solids (in only 2 months tops! Can't believe it...) I plan to make my own baby food for a while. Buy organic veggies and puree them. Buy organic meat and puree that too (how gross is the thought of pureed chicken? Yuck.) Adam and I have big plans for how active we're going to be as a family, and I know we will stick to that. It's so important to instill that in Addie - I want her to love exercise and tofu, AND to know the pure enjoyment of a mile-high moist chocolate cake covered in chocolate icing. Yum. Everything in moderation.